I really wish that life wasn't playing out the way it was, in some ways. This is an exciting time in so many ways but the pain won't subside and is making it bittersweet. I just... miss you. I miss YOU; not who you pretended to be or the person you wanted people to think you were. I miss the real you; the one who cared about us. The days are growing closer and it's making it harder. I put up a front and say I'm fine, which most days I am, but not today. Today is particularly hard.
It's kind of sad, in a way. I feel as though I've forgotten almost everything about you; what you look like, your laugh, but I can't forget your old heart. It was one of pure beauty and it's diminished into something so dark and ominous. I love you no matter what, but this is almost getting too hard to handle. It's been almost 3 months; 3 MONTHS. Feels so long but not at all, at the same time.
I just miss you...
