I kind of forgot about this magical place, even though I have no followers so I'm apologizing to no one. Anyways, if someone reads this, I will be taking a ton of new pictures with my new Nikon D3000 and hopefully I can make just a creative space, instead of blogs dedicated to each thing that I love to do.
So, with that in mind, I've been working on getting stuff for recording together. I have a list of songs that I'm going to bring with me to get done. One of them is the most recent song I wrote but it really has taken a life that I never saw it taking and revamped my passion for what I'm doing in life. The music to the song is all thanks to my brother.
I'm not sure what I'm going to call it yet, but "Body Snatcher" seems to be the title I keep coming back to. Also, one of my friends, who is an amazing artist, will be doing the cover for whatever I release, whether it be an LP or EP. I have a pretty nifty idea for the cover depending on which route I go.
If I release an EP, I will end up releasing a few, 2-3 perhaps, and will have each cover be simple drawings placed in proper places on each one, so that when I release an album, I will overlay them on top of each other to make a bigger picture. I will probably ask to have a 4th, separate drawing to add more to it to make it a finished cover. The idea was inspired by making sure I'm keeping myself focused on the bigger picture, even though, all we can see at the moment is what's in front of us.
I'm not positive, but I can't let go of this idea and for the album, when it's finished and ready to romp and roar out of my life, I think I want to call it "See". It's such a short title but encompasses so much in just three letters. I had thought about "Bigger Picture" or "Look" but they didn't have the same meaning to me. When you look at something, you're not always giving your full attention to it, but when you see, it means you get a better understanding of it and sort of come to a realization. I feel like I'm talking about it as if it's already recorded and ready to go.
It's not even in the beginning stages, which I'm okay with for now, no matter how badly I want to start recording. I know I have to wait on God's timing and I'm good with that. I gave Him my life, so He gets to choose when it happens, it's kind of a package deal. So while I wait on that, I'm going to try and start doing photography and maybe even start selling it, if it's good enough to.
Anyways, when I start recording, I'm going to try and get clips and stuff up. I really want to document this journey, even if this road only goes into a dead end, I would like to have this to be able to recap on it and what went down. Here is the list of songs I'm taking with me into the studio ...I'll end up adding and subtracting some from the list, too. I can almost guarantee it.
Intro/On Marching Day
Fire Away
God, Keep Us Safe
Let Me Drive
I'm Yours
Fingerprints
See Me
Without You
Stay with Me
Just Believe
So Long
Where are You?
Save You
Shining Tears
Prodigal
Brings You Down (Hotel)
Body Snatcher
These are the songs I deem most worthy to record and really want to hear final versions of all of them, even though, I know some won't make it, unless I decide to make a crazy long album ("Body Snatcher" is over 6 minutes long just by itself). I know I'm gonna be a tid bit sad to see some of the songs fall off the recording wagon along the way, but if it doesn't work then it doesn't work. I'm actually road tripping to Springfield next week and will be going over the tracklist I have so far and how well the songs flow together. So, at some point in the next few weeks, I'm sure a few songs will be cut.
I know you won't care since you've never heard any of them, but I can honestly say, I'm so proud of each song on that list and really want to share them with you. Some of these songs come from very dark places and a few of them really take on that tone. I've learned some hard life lessons in my 21 years of life and I've had to deal with situations I never wanted to or thought I'd have to, a few of those situations I've had to deal with twice or more. I just want to be honest when I write. I know it'll open me up for criticism but honestly, I've dealt with things far worse than people talking about me and how I'm putting my heart on my sleeves. I know I can take it.
There are some songs in this list that I don't want to share just yet because the scars are still somewhat fresh and I feel like it might allow people to perhaps, dig their claws into. I'm not talking about criticizing here, I mean, wanting to know the story behind certain songs that I'm not sure I'm ready to give an answer for. Not in a bad way against anyone, but talking about some of this stuff only rips the bandage off for the wound to be exposed again. However, I know I'm supposed to do a few of these songs because they keep me accountable on not letting my happiness fall on man, but on God's grace and love for me.
There's a song or two that really steps on the toes of Christians. I'm not targeting everyone else, this was a blow to myself. I had to write this song in order for me to realize that I can't hold myself any higher than anyone else and that we all have problems so I can't judge someone on things they're doing, just because you can see their faults, while I hide all of my faults away and play a role of somebody I'm not, as much as I want to be that person.
I'm really sorry for this being so long and if anyone reads this and has read thus far, just know I appreciate it. That's all for now seeing as it's past 3 am.
Seek Truth.
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